A job rant
Unfortunately, I seem to have this idea that if I’m being paid to do a job I should do an okay job. Actually I think you should do a great job…but I get fed up. I think, tho, that you should at the very very very least do what you’re supposed to do.
Like, if I’m teaching a course, I should deliver a good course not some half-baked thing that anybody can do. I should cater to students and make myself available. Of course, I shouldn’t cater to them by watering down the course.
But I don’t seem to be lucky enough to be given courses that I can always teach. It’s stuff I don’t really know and don’t have time to figure out completely…don’t have time to figure out how to fake it in front of the class.
Then, I wonder, do I really want to leave my job or is it just this one course that is making me so desperate to get out. Sometimes it’s hard to tell. My family tells me that I’ve already said that if people don’t care about accreditation then it’s not my fault and stop stressing about the things I’m incapable of teaching. But it does hurt or worry me. And then I remember, I felt the great urge to leave leave leave even before this term started and it’s loads of other things.
And it helps.
But still…here I am no sleep, class in 5 hours and no idea what I’m doing with my students.
